As most of you know Alan and I would love to add another little munchkin to our growing family. We want Rhya to be a big sister in the worst way and we know she will be a great one. I had missed my period for the last 2 1/2 months. Now I am normally anywhere from 5-6 weeks late anyway so I wasn't to excited but when I was about 8 weeks late I though "Maybe????" I probably took at least 10 hpts (home pregnancy tests) and they were all a negative. I have heard that there are some women who have had negative tests the whole way through their pregnancy's... So there was a possibility. I felt that I was even having symptoms also... So what could this mean? I took online symptom quizzes and they all said "Your probably pregnant, Call you doctor"
So you can probably see how discouraged and disheartened
I can't explain how I feel but what I can say is that this song has helped me deal with my emotional ups and downs!
We pray for blessing
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things
Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise
We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe
Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
And what if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise
When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know the pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home
Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise
I am truly thankful for my beautiful healthy daughter and my loving husband!
6 comments:
Praying for you Ellie....for you to be filled with the peace that passes ALL understanding during this season of waiting on God's timing, for this season to draw you even closer to God as you press into Him, and believing boldly with you that you WILL conceive SOON! I'm so sorry this hasn't been an easy thing, but I'm so blessed by your humble attitude of choosing to believe that even though this is hard, it will be to God's glory and your good.
I am horrified that you post your sex life on the internet for every tom, dick, and harry to read. Does your husband know his sex life is broadcast to the world?
Ellie, I don't normally read your blog but I saw your post on FB and hopped over to cheer you up. That is the downside to blogging, you put yourself out there honest and open, and some troll comes along and rants at you. They post anonymously, then go away feeling vindicated or justified. You feel stunned because it was aimed at you, but any normal person reading your post and the comment from anonymous will comprehend what a small minded, vile and useless person this anonymous is. Pity them and then give them no more thought or time, they are not worth it. I was going to respond to anonymous, but my useful instruction I doubt they could comprehend.
first off Ellen you should ignore that comment by "anonymous". They obviously didn't read your post correctly because I didn't see anywhere in there you talking about your "sex life"...just a struggle you are working through related to not being able to conceive. I agree with DS also. Second, i pray that you may find peace in your situation knowing that God sees the whole picture. He knows your heart to have a brother or sister for Rhya and he was the one that created you (and the way your body works!)...so trust in him. Know you are in my prayers!
Anonymous is a waste of time Ellen, I agree with the others that have your back. They are simply nothing but a low life with nothing better to do! And I believe they only said that because they are jealous of the wonderful life that you have been blessed with.
Sarah was over Saturday and told me about your post and your desire for more babies :) I will be praying for you - I'm glad you are clinging to the One who gives hope for your heart's desire...
And on a weird and unrelated note, when I was reading your blog, the designs at the bottom right looked like Snoopy to me and I thought it odd to have Snoopy on a flowery background. This is how my mind works... But it's not Snoopy at all... Doesn't it look like him, though? Yes, I'm weird... Stop messin' with my head... ;)
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