Anxieties of Life ... (For me ...Anyway)

Anxiety is something I struggle with on a daily basis... Ever since I was a teen in high school. Whether it was a test, horse show, work, it really didn't matter. This is also a big trigger for my IBS (Irritable Bowel Syndrome) If you've never heard of this condition, let me enlighten you. Anything and everything can and will send you to the bathroom in quite a hurry (and not throwing up... catch my drift???). I have to watch what I eat... no ice cream, milk, greesy food and even soda unless I'm not going anywhere for a few days. Your always wondering where the bathroom is when your shopping and if you go out to eat, about 75% of the time your rushing home for the bathroom. So you can imagine growing up I had to learn how to handle the different pressures that life would throw my way or I would miss out on life completly!

Here of late I have had a lot of anxiety and I know it is an attack from satan. I have been able, through prayer, to keep my anxiety levels low and focus on what I need to. With doing that I have also been able to control my IBS about 25%. Which is a lot! For me anyway! I have found that with this pregnancy, my stomach has decided to declare war. I wish it was as simple as throwing up but its not.. at least I would be able to get some yard work done that way! Instead I am trapped in what my husband calls "my office" for what seems like ALL DAY LONG! I have realized that while I'm in "my office" I might as well read the best book possible! Can you guess which one I mean? My Bible. Sometimes in my hurry I forget to grab it but most of the time I do!
 Rhya has also been a trooper and will check on me to make sure I'm ok throughout her playtime! What a special little girl she is!

Back to my anxieties, if you think of me please pray. Most likely I need it in some way or another.
Some things on my mind here of late...

• Baby #2
• Rhya's arm healing properly
• Getting the nursery ready in time (only have 2 1/2 weeks and the room isn't even cleaned out... not my stuff to clean... wallpaper needs stripped, floor sanded, walls painted, etc.)
• Living room is finished with paint but the floor needs finished (waiting on baby's room so we don't have to spend more money renting a sander twice!)
• Sister-in-law's wedding coming up really fast! Baby even faster!
• Strawberry season is around the corner (About baby and wedding time) 
• House needs cleaned and I don't feel like I have energy being sick all the time.
• Not sleeping well (normal for this stage in pregnancy... I know!)
• Praying that I have patience to handle Rhya when she's a handful and not raise my voice. I grew up being scolded on the louder side and i find I'm doing the same. I am trying to change that...
• Trying to keep my cool with my dear hubby when I've had a long day and he doesn't take his boots off at the door and other small things that may set off a ticking time bomb!

The list could go on and on and on... I'm sure everyone has a list similar to mine with things you stress about. I know I'm not the only one.

As I sit here, typing I really feel a sense of peace. I can feel baby H. hiccuping and though most days it can get a little "annoying"(mothers who have been pregnant know exactly what I'm talking about!) I am thankful for the little life growing inside and those hiccups mean the baby is practicing its breathing for the BIG day!

I leave you with this bible verse:

      Romans 15:13
        May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that by the power of the Holy   Spirit you may abound in hope.

Have a wonderful weekend!

Introducing ..........!!!!

We finally have decided to share that we are expecting baby number two very soon! We chose to keep this wonderful news on the quiet side (only family and a few friends knew) because of the trouble we had with my previous pregnancy (Rhya). We are overjoyed to say after a scare with extra fluid in the brain and some growth concerns, baby Harnish is healthy and normal (according to the doctor at maternal fetal medicine this morning!) We are so excited for this little munchkin to arrive and I am so happy to say Rhya is to!

This would be one of the many reasons I haven't been blogging very much lately... I am hoping to at least get a post in once a month if not more. Life has been very crazy and we are all but running around like chickens with our heads cut off! Graphic, I know...

In other news :


Rhya broke her arm falling off of a horse. I know your all probably thinking... "Why in the world was a two and a half year old on a horse and why did she fall off?" If your a horse person you know very well the joys and risks we take when working with these majestic animals. Rhya is one of those natural horse girls who will have a love for horses her whole life. I am so glad! When she fell it was a simple accident. Horse read the leaders body language, rhya wasn't holding on (she was bareback) and one funny, bouncy step made her slide enough to cause her to loose her balance and off she went :( She broke the bone between her should and elbow... right at the elbow. What a tough cookie she is! Thank goodness my mother works in at Lancaster Reginal's ER so we were able to give them a heads up we were coming and my mom was with us through the whole process!
Rhya has her purple cast for one more week yet! Yeah! Then she will have a splint that we can take on and off to bath and exercise :) Rhya has since been back riding and even has her own (dare I say this) Barrel saddle! That does not mean she will be barrel racing anytime soon! The saddle fits snugger and has a larger horn for her to hold on! She was overjoyed when she saw it!

We remodeled the hog barn a few weeks ago... instead of a scale barn (Big scales weigh the pigs and sort automatically) we now have a pen barn (about 30ish pigs in each pen and that's where they stay).  It is much nicer for Alan and hopefully the maintenance will be cut down dramatically!

Thats all for now!

Hopefully you will here/read more from me before baby Harnish arrives!