Dear Anonymous...

I have been thinking and praying about how I should respond to your comment. Though it wasn't outrageously rude, cruel or the like, it definitely made the hair on the back of my neck stand on end. Why? As humans we are quick to be angry and snap rudely. So your comment did strike a nerve with me... but not the nerve that you were probably aiming for. This nerve was a nerve of disappointment... I was disappointed that someone would respond in a comment about something they know so little about and I was disappointed that someone didn't read or understand what I was writing about.  

Your comment showed me how many friends and family members truly do care what we (my husband and I) are feeling. Many have emailed, commented and told me how they felt about your comment and re-assured me that what I posted was not offensive to them at all.

 One person in particular... My husband... was offended when you labeled our fertility struggles as our "sex-life". It is NO WHERE CLOSE! Our "sex-life" belongs between my husband and I... and it will stay that way. I was only merely stating that we are praying and trusting that if we are to have another child, it will be in Gods gracious timing.

As a Christian I am forgiving you... I am praying for you... and I am truly hoping that you may find peace.

Blessings through tears

I have been clinging to the song "Blessings" by Laura Story. A good friend of mine wrote about it in her blog a few months ago and I've loved it since. I have been struggling lately. Especially with my self esteem and this song has uplifted me especially within the last 24 hours. Here's why:

As most of you know Alan and I would love to add another little munchkin to our growing family. We want Rhya to be a big sister in the worst way and we know she will be a great one. I had missed my period for the last 2 1/2 months. Now I am normally anywhere from 5-6 weeks late anyway so I wasn't to excited but when I was about 8 weeks late I though "Maybe????"  I probably took at least 10 hpts (home pregnancy tests) and they were all a negative. I have heard that there are some women who have had negative tests the whole way through their pregnancy's... So there was a possibility. I felt that I was even having symptoms also... So what could this mean? I took online symptom quizzes and they all said "Your probably pregnant, Call you doctor"

So you can probably see how discouraged and disheartened I was we were when "TOM" (time of month, aka period) decided to surprise me yesterday morning.

I can't explain how I feel but what I can say is that this song has helped me deal with my emotional ups and downs!

We pray for blessing

We pray for peace

  Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
 We pray for healing, for prosperity
     We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
    All the while, You hear each spoken need
    Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

                                                                                  
                                                                   Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
                                                                           What if Your healing comes through tears
                                                                                 What if a thousand sleepless nights
                                                                            Are what it takes to know You’re near
                                                                       What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

                                                                                         We pray for wisdom
                                                                                           Your voice to hear
                                                                   And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
                                                                     We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
                                                                     As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
                                                                       All the while, You hear each desperate plea
                                                                          And long that we'd have faith to believe

                                                                 Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
                                                                         What if Your healing comes through tears
                                                                             What if a thousand sleepless nights
                                                                          Are what it takes to know You’re near
                                                             And what if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

                                                                                     When friends betray us
                                                                                When darkness seems to win
                                                                               We know the pain reminds this heart
                                                                              That this is not, this is not our home

                                                                Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
                                                                          What if Your healing comes through tears
                                                                          And what if a thousand sleepless nights
                                                                          Are what it takes to know You’re near
                                                                           What if my greatest disappointments
                                                                                 Or the aching of this life
                                                           Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
                                                                               And what if trials of this life
                                                                        The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
                                                                                 Are Your mercies in disguise

I am truly thankful for my beautiful healthy daughter and my loving husband! 

A pleasant evening on the boat!

We were so excited to head out on the river for the first time this summer with our good friends Jarred, Sarah, Chad and Megan! We took the girls ( Emma and Rhya) up to boat city so they could practice their swimming! How cute are they!

 Dear miss Emma was so concerned about her daddy being in the water! 

The water was cold but that didn't keep the men from wake boarding! Us women were smart and stayed dry, for the most part!