I have been clinging to the song "Blessings" by Laura Story. A good friend of mine wrote about it in her blog a few months ago and I've loved it since. I have been struggling lately. Especially with my self esteem and this song has uplifted me especially within the last 24 hours. Here's why:
As most of you know Alan and I would love to add another little munchkin to our growing family. We want Rhya to be a big sister in the worst way and we know she will be a great one. I had missed my period for the last 2 1/2 months. Now I am normally anywhere from 5-6 weeks late anyway so I wasn't to excited but when I was about 8 weeks late I though "Maybe????" I probably took at least 10 hpts (home pregnancy tests) and they were all a negative. I have heard that there are some women who have had negative tests the whole way through their pregnancy's... So there was a possibility. I felt that I was even having symptoms also... So what could this mean? I took online symptom quizzes and they all said "Your probably pregnant, Call you doctor"
So you can probably see how discouraged and disheartened
I was we were when "TOM" (time of month, aka period) decided to surprise me yesterday morning.
I can't explain how I feel but what I can say is that this song has helped me deal with my emotional ups and downs!
We pray for blessing
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things
Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise
We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe
Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
And what if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise
When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know the pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home
Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise
I am truly thankful for my beautiful healthy daughter and my loving husband!
